Hello Death Dragon.
May I ask you what exactly you think its wrong with you? Ok I will say to you some basic facts:
1. Most new age kids just hang out around games anyway, they dont like sports or play outside anyway........ So do not think you lost anything, most kids go out at weekends, or something, so you didnt LOST so much as you think.
2. Yes you should talk to people, but good people, wrong people would just wreck you up, because in bad company you would try to fit in, and trust me you do NOT WANT to fit in, you need to find someone that likes you as you are.
3. Trying to be more people, well more people (not just you) did it in this game, so youre not only one. But dont worry, I hardly believe anyone actually does grudge to you.
Note: People in this game did way worse things to me and other people that knew me than you ever did to anyone. If your crime is to be more people, thats still better than cheat and insult people with other usernames as some did to me.
4. Having no sex till year 20, dude, many people did not have sex till 20 or more. Some want to find right person, so you worry too much. Relax and talk normally to people. Dont be scared, well we live in weird world with weird people, but there are cool people.
If you talk to someone and he says metabolic end product, just turn around and dont be sad and dont think on that...... Aint worth, next second is new second, next day is new day, dont think how bad past day was, think how cool next day will be or CAN BE. Do your best, dont give up.
I was competitive people never liked me much, but man I am here, I live, I train, I am more and more proud on me, and I played tons of DX instead to be outside. Still I have no problems to talk to people.
Mayb I give you advice? Try to find part time job, that will make you talk to people, maybe some job where people order pizza or something, something easy where you mostly find good people. Or maybe job in clothes store or something? That will give you confidence and people are mostly polite when shoping on fency places.
Just tips. And *love* it man dont think on scissors or some metabolic end product, stay cool and positive, you have only one life.
What have you missed? Drinking, going out? Bro, you are in 20's, you can still go out, drink, get girl, man youre talking like its too late, bro youre superyoung, dont drama, get some easy job, talk to people, then go TO BEST collage you can pass, do it, believe in yourself, let parents be proud on you, AND THEN GET SOME kickass job and be proud and happy.
Girls will come, sometimes when you dont expect, just stay positive, make your days happy, smile, be happy, be positive, do things you like, and most important be yourself.
You dont need 20 characters to be loved. People who dont like you when you act normal are just not people to who you want to talk. If you dont do anything bad, and someone is rood to you, DONT get another nickname, just move awqay and talk to other person because people who insult are just not worth.
As far as I see isolation is your own problem, that can be solved, you worry too much, stay smart, stay calm, smile, be happy, wake up every day happy and do good things, people say to good people good things happen, so be good person and god will give you good things.
And dont say crap, I know you probably since day 1 you joined to this game, and you were just fine with me. Please no drama
Deus Ex never died, maybe I am not every day online but I was always around, specially at 2011, 2012 and 2013, even after that I played quite a lot, so DX never died
Youre welcome man and stay positive, work hard, do good things, and good things will happen to you. Sometimes you have to work hard and do little steps in order to start making big steps with time. That is how usually works, give yourself time, and man youre still young, stay strong and be smart.
All best.